supi's blog

fist post! yay! i was planning on making the first post on here after i got each part of the site to a usable state, as a sort of 'grand opening' moment. thing is, i havent done much in the past week or so, and as determined as i am to get this thing 'finished' in a sense (ill keep updating it of course), i feel writing this as a halfway-done post might be nice, and potentially get me back into finishing this thing.

one day, a week or two ago as of writing, i woke up and thought "i should make a webste" and so i did that. i just wanted some place to put the things that i do/think/like, and this seemed like the best way to do it. i didnt know anything about html or css before i started working on this, nor did i consider myself a decent graphic designer (i still dont), but ive surprised myself with not only how good its coming out, but how quickly ive been able to get parts done. the entire about and music sections, as well as most of the portfolio section, was done in one day if i remember correctly, and that includes formatting. i know its not the most impressive thing in the world, but i made it from the ground up, and im proud of that fact.

that productive flow was kinda interrupted several days ago. ive definitely been quite a lot more busy this past week, despite it not even being midterms yet. its like quarterterms. i just had like a bunch of shit happening all at once, and im admittedly not caught up on all of it yet, but its definitely clearing up, at least for now, so hopefully i can get back in the saddle here. im sure my roommates appreciated the break, since every single day, multiple times a day, i would bring my laptop over to them and be like "look at this thing i just made!" and its like, evenly spacing and centering the buttons at the top of the page. i feel like a kid excitedly asking their parents to put a crayon drawing on the fridge.

a few days ago, i got a copy of fl studio, since i realized that i mostly wanna focus my efforts on electronic and ambient music, and fl seemed like a pretty good bet for that, at least compared to studio one, and i always found the interface of fl to be pretty intuitive. so i gave it a whirl and im loving it. everything just makes sense, which as someone coming from classes where i have to learn how to use pro tools, thats quite a relief. that plus a lot of really flexible instruments and plugins makes for a really easy creative flow, and ive been feeling a lot more motivated to get shit done as a result.

ive had countless moments in the past where i start a new studio one project, jot down an idea or two, then just let it sit there. i dont try to flesh it out right then and there, instead i always say "oh ill do that later" then never do. theres probably like 150 different studio one projects on my hard drive, dating back to like 2022 or so, that have like one or two midi tracks on them and are 10 seconds at most. i dont remember any of them and i have no plans on revisiting any either, especially since some of those older ones are complete trash. its to the point that, even when i find the motivation to work on some older stuff, theres so much work ive left undone that i can barely tell where to start.

i think i needed to get a fresh start, firmly abaondon most of those ideas and only have a few projects on my plate. i havent completed anything yet, but the few things i have started are actually taking the form of a song, rather than one or two melodic ideas by themselves. hopefully i can also start filling out the music section of this site with these projects. it really is funny how i have so many project files in studio one, yet almost nothing to show for it.

i think that roughly wraps up what i wanted to talk about. im gonna go sketch out one of the ideas i had yesterday. i started a new song yesterday after doing my weekly estrogen injections to see if that would increase my music production power level, and im not gonna say it worked and that you should transition to make better music because correlation is not causality. but it seemed to me that theres a correlation.